Mother,
how to change one's consciousness?
Naturally,
there are many ways, but each person must do it by the means accessible
to him; and the indication of the way usually comes spontaneously, through
something like an unexpected experience. And for each one, it appears
a little differently.
For
instance, one may have the perception of the ordinary consciousness
which is extended on the surface, horizontally, and works on a plane
which is simultaneously the surface of things and has a contact with
the superficial outer side of things, people, circumstances; and then,
suddenly, for some reason or other - as I say for each one it is different
- there is shifting upward, and instead of seeing things horizontally,
of being at the same level as they are, you suddenly dominate them and
see them from above, in their totality, instead of seeing a small number
of things immediately nest to yourself; it is as though something were
drawing you above and making you see as from a mountain-top or an aeroplane.
And instead of seeing each detail and seeing it on its own level, you
see the whole as one unity, and from far above.
There
are many ways ;of having this experience, but it usually comes to you
as if chance, one fine day.
Or
else, one may have an experience which is almost its very opposite but
which comes to the same thing. Suddenly one plunges into a depth, one
moves away from the thing one perceived, it seems distant, superficial,
unimportant; one enters an inner silence or an inner calm or an inward
vision of things, a profound feeling, a more intimate perception of
circumstances and things, in which all values change. And one becomes
aware of a sort of unity, a deep identity which is one in spite of the
diverse appearances.
Or
else, suddenly also, the sense of limitation disappears and one enters
the perception of a kind of indefinite duration beginningless and endless,
of something which has always been and always will be.
These
experiences come to you suddenly in a flash, for a second, a moment
in your life, you don't know why or how... There are other ways, other
experiences - they are innumerable, they vary according to people; but
with this, with one minute, one second of such an existence, one catches
the tail of the thing. So one must remember that, try to relive it,
go to the depths of the experience, recall it, aspire, concentrate.
This is the starting-point, the end of the guiding thread, the clue.
For all those who are destined to find their inner being, the truth
of their being, there is always at least one moment in life when they
were no longer the same, perhaps just like a lightning-flash - but that
is enough. It indicates the road one should take, it is the door that
opens on this path. And so you must pass through the door, and with
perseverance and an unfailing steadfastness seek to renew the state
which will lead you to something more real and more total.
Many
ways have always been given, but a way you have been taught, a way you
have read about in books or heard from a teacher, does not have the
effective value of a spontaneous experience which has come without any
apparent reason, and which is simply the blossoming of the soul's awakening,
one second of contact with your psychic being which shows you the best
way for you, the one most within your reach, which you will then have
to follow with perseverance to reach the goal - one second which shows
you how to start, the beginning.... Some have this in dreams at night;
some have it at any odd time: something one sees which awakens in one
this new consciousness something one hears, a beautiful landscape, beautiful
music, or else simply a few words one reads, or else the intensity of
concentration in some effort - anything at all, there are a thousand
reasons and thousands of ways of having it. But, I repeat, all those
who are destined to realise have had this at least once in their life.
It may be very fleeting, it may have come when they were very young,
but always at least once in one's life one has the experience of what
true consciousness is. Well, that is the best indication of the path
to be followed.
One
may seek within oneself, one may remember, may observe; one must notice
what is going on, one must pay attention, that's all. Sometimes, when
one sees a generous act, hears of something exceptional, when one sees
a generous act, hears of something exceptional, when one witnesses heroism
or generosity or greatness of soul, meets someone who shows a special
talent or acts in an exceptional an beautiful way, there is kind of
enthusiasm or admiration or gratitude which suddenly awakens in the
being and opens the door to a state, a new state of consciousness, a
light, a warmth, a joy one did not know before. That too is a way of
catching the guiding thread. There are a thousand ways, one has only
to be awake and to watch.
First
of all, you must feel the necessity for this change of consciousness,
accept the idea that it is this, the path which must lead to the goal;
and once you admit the principle, you must be watchful. And you will
find, you do find it. And once you have found it, you must start walking
without any hesitation.
Indeed,
The starting-point is to observe oneself, not live in a perpetual nonchalance,
a perpetual apathy; one must be attentive.
26
December 1956
- The Mother