The
other day you told me that in order to know things, you
plug into the subtle plane, and there it all unrolls as
on a tape recorder. How does this work, exactly?
There
is a whole gradation of planes of consciousness, from the
physical consciousness to my radiant consciousness at the
very highest level, that which knows the Will of the Supreme.
I keep all these planes of consciousness in front of me, working
simultaneously, coordinatedly, and I am acting on each plane,
gathering the information proper to each plane, so as to have
the integral truth of things. Thus, when I have a decision
to make in regard to one of you, I plug into you directly
from that level of the supreme consciousness which sees the
deep truth of your being. But at the same time, my decision
is shaped, as it were, by the information given to me by the
other planes of consciousness and particularly by the physical
consciousness, which acts as a recorder.
This
physical consciousness records all it sees, all your reactions,
your thoughts, all the facts - without preference, without
prejudice, without personal will. Nothing escapes it. Its
work is almost mechanical. Therefore I know what to tell or
to ask you according to the integral truth of your being and
its present possibilities. Ordinarily, in the normal man,
the physical consciousness does not see things as they are,
for three reasons: because of ignorance, because of preference,
and because of an egoistic will. You color what you see, eliminate
what displeases you. In short, you see only what you desire
to see.
Now,
I recently had a very striking experience: a discrepancy occurred
between my physical consciousness and the consciousness of
the world. In some instances decisions made in the Light and
the Truth produced unexpected results, upheavals in the consciousness
of others that were neither foreseen nor desired, and I did
not understand. No matter how hard I tried, I could not understand
- and I emphasize this word 'understand.' At last, I had to
leave my highest consciousness and pull myself down into the
physical consciousness to find out what was happening. And
there, in my head, I saw what appeared to be a little cell
bursting, and suddenly I understood: the recording had been
defective. The physical consciousness had neglected to register
certain of your lower reactions. It could not have been through
preference or through personal will (these things were eliminated
from my consciousness long, long ago). But I saw that this
most material consciousness was already completely permeated
with the transforming supramental truth, and it could no longer
follow the rhythm of normal life. It was much more attuned
to the true consciousness than to the world! I couldn't possibly
blame it for lagging behind; on the contrary, it was in front,
too far ahead! There was a discrepancy between the rhythm
of the transformation of my being and the world's own rhythm.
The supramental action on the world is slow, it does not act
directly - it acts by infiltration, by traversing the successive
layers, and the results are slow to come about. So I had to
pull myself violently down in order to wait for the others.
One
must at times know how not to know.
This
experience showed me once more the necessity to be perfectly
humble before the Lord. It is not enough merely to rise to
the heights, to the ethereal planes of consciousness: these
planes have also to descend into matter and illuminate it.
Otherwise, nothing is really done. One must have the patience
to establish the communication between the high and the low.
I am like a tempest, a hurricane - if I listened to myself,
I would tear into the future, and everything would go flying!
But then, there would no longer be any communication with
the rest.
One
must have the patience to wait.
Humility,
a perfect humility, is the condition for all realization.
The mind is so cocksure. It thinks it knows everything, understands
everything. And if ever it acts through idealism to serve
a cause that appears noble to it, it becomes even more arrogant
more intransigent, and it is almost impossible to make it
see that there might. be something still higher beyond its
noble conceptions and its great altruistic or other ideals.
Humility is the only remedy. I am not speaking of humility
as conceived by certain religions, with this God that belittles
his creatures and only likes to see them down on their knees.
When I was a child, this kind of humility revolted me, and
I refused to believe in a God that wants to belittle his creatures.
I don't mean that kind of humility, but rather the recognition
that one does not know, that one knows nothing, and that there
may be something beyond what presently appears to us as the
truest, the most noble or disinterested. True humility consists
in constantly referring oneself to the Lord, in placing all
before Him. When I receive a blow (and there are quite a few
of them in my sadhana), my immediate, spontaneous reaction,
like a spring, is to throw myself before Him and to say, 'Thou,
Lord.' Without this humility, I would never have been able
to realize anything. And I say 'I' only to make myself understood,
but in fact 'I' means the Lord through this body, his instrument.
When you begin living THIS kind of humility, it means you
are drawing nearer to the realization. It is the condition,
the starting point.
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21 December 1957
The Mother
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