Impersonalization
of The Bodily Consciousness
There
is progress in the impersonalization of the physical, bodily
consciousness, with consequences that are probably interesting,
but impossible to explain to people who don't understand.
For instance…
(silence)
I
am conscious of the body, but it isn't the consciousness
of this body (Mother touches her body): it's the
consciousness of THE Body - it may be anyone's body. I am
conscious, for instance, of vibrations of disorder (most
often they come in the form of suggestions of disorder)
in order to see whether they are accepted and have an effect.
Let's take an example of a suggestion of hemorrhage, or
some such suggestion (I mention hemorrhage because it will
soon come into the picture). Under the higher Influence,
the body consciousness rejects it. Then begins the battle
(all this takes place all the way down in the cells, in
the material consciousness) between what we could call the
"will for hemorrhage," for example, and the reaction
of the body's cells. But it's very like a real battle, a
real confrontation. And all of a sudden, there's something
like a general issuing a command and saying, "What's
this!"…. You understand, that general is conscious
of the higher forces, the higher realities and the divine
intervention in Matter; and after trying to use the will,
this reaction, that feeling of peace and so on, suddenly
he is SEIZED by a very strong determination and issues a
command—in no time the effect begins to make itself
felt, and little by little everything returns to order.
All
this takes place in the material consciousness. Physically,
the body has all the sensations—but not the hemorrhage,
you understand. But it does have the sensations, that is,
the effects: all the sensory effects. It goes on for a while
and then follows a whole curve. All right. Once the battle
is over, I take a look and wonder (I observe the whole thing,
I see my body, which has been fairly shaken, mind you),
I say to myself, "What in the world is all this?"
But just for a second, then I forget about it.
A
few days afterwards, I receive a letter from someone very
close, who has an ardent faith and really holds on to me
with almost perfect faith, exceptional. In the letter: the
whole story, the attack, the hemorrhage, how suddenly the
being is SEIZED, the consciousness is SEIZED with an irresistible
will, and hears words—the very words that were uttered
HERE. The result: saved (he was dying), saved, cured.
Just
enough time for the letter to reach me.
I remembered my episode…and began to understand that
my body is everywhere!!
You
see, it's not a question of just these cells here: it's
a question of cells in, well, quite a lot of people, hundreds,
maybe thousands—all that clings anywhere and in any
way to the higher Consciousness. And since my mind is silent
(I deliberately keep the mind absolutely still, trying not
to react to all that constantly comes to it from "outside,"
or trying to react almost subconsciously), nothing is there
to think, "Oh, it's this one's body, it's that one's
body" —it's THE BODY—this (Mother touches
her body) is not my body any more than other bodies
(a bit more, in the sense that it is more directly the object
of the concentration of the Force). So everything, all the
sensations, the movements of the consciousness, the battles,
all of it is everywhere. And suddenly, with this little
affair, oh, I understood a fantastic number of things—and
also the difficulty, mon petit!… The difficulty…
because really, after this experience, the body was not
ill but very tired. But then it is seized with such things
all the time! All the time, all the time, all the time,
you know, they spring up, brrm! pounce on it, brrm! from
this side, that side, every which way. So I have to keep
still (gesture of stopping, silent, in the midst of
other activities), and then I start waging the battle.
(silence)
Which
means the body has got its own difficulties (no aggregate
of cells is free from difficulties in the present conditions
of life), and I think that its capacity to keep still (to
an extent) is its only safeguard….but that doesn't
reduce the difficulties at all, since the contact does not
depend on the physical presence! But then what tremendous,
prodigious power has to be EMBODIED in the physical cells
to withstand all that!…
But
there too, a shift is taking place (what I told you once:
those abrupt experiences that do not settle this story,
suddenly something arose in the body consciousness—which
in not ONE body's consciousness but a general body consciousness—an
aspiration, something so pure, so sweet…so sweet…something
like an entreaty that Truth and Light may at last be manifested
here, in this. Not "here in this" (Mother
touches her own body): it was everywhere.
Then
there was a contact—there was a contact—and a
pale blue Light, very sweet, very bright, and an Assurance.
It lasted only a second, but it was like a new chapter suddenly
opening up.
....
April
1963
- The Mother
