Supramental
Light in The Body
For
the West, with all its outward development, a few centuries
may be needed before the junction between the two worlds
can be made. And yet these two worlds—the physical
world and the world of Truth—are not distant from one
another. They are as if superimposed. The world of Truth
is there, close by, like a lining of the other.
Shortly
before the 15th of August [1959] I had a unique experience…
For the first time the supramental light entered directly
into my body, without passing through the inner beings.
It entered through the feet ( a re and gold colour - marvelous,
warm, intense), and it climbed up and up. And as it climbed,
the fever also climbed because the body was not accustomed
to this intensity. As all this light neared the head, I
thought I would burst and that the experience would have
to be stopped. But then, I very clearly received the indication
to make the Calm and Peace descend, to widen all this body
consciousness and all these cells, so that they could contain
the supramental light. So I widened, and as the light was
ascending, I brought down the vastness and an unshakable
peace. And suddenly, there was a second of fainting.
I
found myself in another world, but not far away (I was not
in a total trance). This world was almost as substantial
as the physical world. There were rooms—Sri Aurobindo's
room with the bed he rests on - and he was living there,
he was there all the time: it was his abode. Even my room
was there, with a large like the one I have here, combs,
all kinds of things. And the substance of these objects
was almost as dense as in the physical world, but they shone
with their own light. It was not translucent, not transparent,
not radiant, but self-luminous. The various objects and
the material of the rooms did not have this same opacity
as the physical objects here, they were not dry and hard
as in the physical world we know.
And
Sri Aurobindo was there, with a majesty, a magnificent beauty.
He had all his beautiful hair as before. It was all so concrete,
so substantial - he was even being served some kind of food.
I remained there for one hour (I had looked at my watch
before and I looked at it afterwards). I spoke to Sri Aurobindo,
for I had some important questions to ask him about the
way certain things are to be realized. He said nothing.
He listened to me quietly and looked at me as if all my
words were useless: he understood everything at once. And
he answered me with a gesture and two expressions on his
face, an unexpected gesture that did not at all correspond
to any thought of mine; for example, he picked up three
combs that were lying near the mirror (combs similar to
those I use here, but larger) and he put them in his hair.
He planted one comb in the middle of his head and the two
others on each side, as if to gather all his hair over his
temples. He was literally COIFFED with these three combs,
which gave him a kind of crown. And I immediately understood
that by this he meant that he was adopting my conception:
'You see, I embrace your conception of things, and I coif
myself with it; it is my will.' Anyway, I remained there
for one hour.
And
when I awoke, I didn't have this feeling of returning from
afar and of having to re-enter my body, as I usually do.
No, it was simply as though I were in this other world,
then I took a step backwards and found myself here again.
It took me a good half an hour to understand that this world
here existed as much as the other and that I was no longer
on the other side but here, in the world of falsehood. I
had forgotten everything - people, things, what I had to
do; everything had gone, as if it had no reality at all.
You
see, it's not as if this world of Truth had to be created
from nothing: it is fully ready, it is there, like a lining
of our own present world. Everything is there, EVERYTHING
is there.
I
remained in that state for two full days, two days of absolute
felicity. And Sri Aurobindo was with me the whole time,
the whole time—when I walked, he walked with me, when
I sat down, he sat next to me. On the day of August 15th,
too he remained there constantly during the darshan. But
who saw?—No one.
And
I showed all these people to Sri Aurobindo, this whole field
of work, and asked him WHEN this other world, the real one
that is there, so near, would come to take the place of
our world of falsehood. Not ready. That was all
he replied. Not ready.
Sri Aurobindo gave me two days of this—total bliss.
But all the same, by the end of the second day I realized
that I could not continue to remain there, for the work
was not advancing. The work must be done in the body; the
realization must be attained here in this physical world,
for otherwise it is not complete. So I withdrew from that
world and set to work here again.
And
yet, it would take little, very little, to pass from this
world to the other, or for the other to become the real
world. A little click would be enough, or rather a little
reversal in the inner attitude. How should I put it?…
It is imperceptible to the ordinary consciousness; a very
little inner shift would be enough, a change in quality.
....
6
October 1959
- The Mother
